Pretence

You were all that I wanted. I fell in love with your heart and your soul. Couldn't imagine you ever hurting me or mistreating my love. I should have known.

If this was the way that you loved, you never should have loved me. You never should have touched me, never should have told me you loved me. Cause everything that you would do, it made me fall in love with you.

Thoughts racing through my head, how did we start up in love and end up here?  You said you loved me and I believed you. Seems your words meant nothing.

You were all I wanted,  I fell in love with you, cause you loved me and I thought we were meant to be. You should have let me keep all my love to give.

Now the hardest thing about realising you don't love me, is that you spent so much time pretending that you did. 

Therefore...

Common Ground

"... flaws and all, she (I) loved him as if he was perfect. She (I) fell in love with his potential which made her (me) overlook the truth. That's why she (I) kept going back..."

Unknown Source

"She (I) either fell in love with who he was or who he pretended to be. She (I) may hold onto him longer than she (I) should simply because her (my) love is genuine, its real. If it was that easy, she (I) would have walked away along time ago but when you love someone, you ching to the hope that things will improve."

Unknown Source

Find That Someone

Find someone who knows you're sad just by the change of tone in your voice. Someone who sees you're disappointed by loss of eye contact. Someone, willing to change that.

Be with someone who loves the features you hate most about yourself. Who allows you to embrace them.

Fall in love with someone who looks at you and knows they don't want anyone else.

Choice and Chance

"No one falls in love by choice, it's by chance. No one stays in love by chance, it's by working at it and no one falls out of love by chance, it's by choice."

Like I do

"I wish you loved you like I do... You must understand my adoration... For your essence is to be ingested in all forms the human can feel... You are life, imperfect, but invaluable. A billow of emotions and beauty bottled and served in the physical. You are love. I wish you loved you like I do."

(dae.d.lee)

Someone

I need someone who loves the things I love most about myself - my heart. I need someone who gets it. Gets that it is kind, it cares, it  worries, it loves deeply and it will forever remain hopeful, and doesn't take it as a weakness. Someone who doesn't want me to change but who uplifts me. Someone who realizes I do things for them because I love them and I want to. Someone who despite knowing all of this, wont one day take it for granted. Someone who appreciates me.

So while I wait for that someone, I'll learn to become my own true love, best friend and biggest fan first.

Say it loud, say it proud.

I know we started off as friends, but I am your lady now. I want to be treated accordingly. I want to be respected for the person I am in your life. Throughout! Not just when it suits you.

I want to be celebrated, boasted about. I am unique in my own way, something to be truly proud of. And, I want my man to do just that, be proud to be with me. Without words but rather with his actions.

I want a man not a boy still trying to play it cool amongst his friends. Rather a man willing to stand by my side, and loudly able to proclaim he is mine and I, his.

We are grown now, there is no more time for childish ways. It is now that we seek out our lifetime partners, potential fathers/mothers to our children and our Rock. Gone are the days of playing hop scotch with people's emotions.

If you're in, be in the whole way, not with one foot out the door. Either come in or shut the door on your way out.

26 September 2014