“Love is soul work. Love can be met and joined with attraction and infatuation and all of that, but love will not fade when those things do.
You can choose to close your heart to love, and run away, and avoid it for as long as you can in every way you can think of but if it was really, truly, the other-worldly, almost supernatural kind of love that we can only hope to be graced with at least once in this life experience,
it will not leave you.
You can love many people, but at the end of the day, the love you need to choose is the love that, even if you close your heart to, still moves you.
The love you still write about.
The love you can’t face.
The love you’re still not okay with losing, that you’re angry about; the love that uprooted your life and contorted your being.
The love you ran away from because it showed you who you are without the guise of worth given from someone else.
This is love because these are all signs that you are closing your heart and to be doing so, there has to be something going through you for you to be able to close off.
Real love will be the love you realize that remains even after you close your heart to it, because it sustains itself. It drives you forward. It brings up all the unhealed parts of you that you have to reconcile.”