Still Hopeless

"You learned that I was a hopeless romantic, and you used it to your advantage.
You took that knowledge, and you ran with it; as well as my heart.
I can now understand why you needed it, since you never had one in the first place.
I'm still hopeless and because of you, a little more heartless." Megan Lawrence

The place that once was but is no longer

Still alive but barely breathing.

Wide awake while others have no trouble sleeping.

Crying my eyes out for days upon days,

still trying to make sense of what little remains.

Did I see them, did I not?

All I know is that, I heard every shot!

Whether at night, during the day or my deepest thoughts, running away.

My heart races, tummy constrains as panic commences

at the mere thought of flashing lights and thundering beams.

On my knees, I pray to Thy,

a God, I doubtfully believe in.

Questioning, whether this was real or just an ordeal?

All chocked up, wondering, if this was meant to be, 

because all my pleas he did not see.

Such a heavy barden placed upon me.
As the house I once called home,
the four walls that I took refuge in,
the purple curtained windows that once shune in light,
the place that once was but is no longer.

Now, just a place
brutally barged upon
left dented,
stained by death,
Stamped upon by grieving nomates
and violated by protesters.

Home
Now just a place,
I would rather not be...
As she moved on, while I'm still griefing, as no pleading words could stop her bleeding.